BECOMING You.

Garrett, my amazing husband… The more sure we become of ourselves in this low season, and the more this season causes us to press into God and further into relationship WITH Him and dependency IN Him, the harder Satan is going to continue to fight against us… the more attacks, the more ammunition, the more distractions, the more lies and ugly situations will arise…. Satan thought that by pulling the rug out from under us, that it would make us so stressed, uncomfortable, and angry that it would destroy our relationship, made us turn our backs on God, and live far from the path God set us upon. Satan came to bring distruction and death to us, and here we are leaning into the Lord harder than we ever have….

I’m SO proud of you. I have never seen anyone do EVERYTHING it takes to keep moving forward through life, no matter the weight that you’re carrying and blockades in the road, and things coming against you. You are a man that walks stright into every storm, with a strength, adversity, and drive that I’ve never seen in anyone in my life. I’m SO blessed to have you as my husband. As much as i’m human and feel like “Okay we are good, can we go back to normal now”, I thank God everyday for this situation because I am closer to Him, and therefore closer to you than I’ve ever been…

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I post this online because I started to send it just to Garrett over text, and thought to myself, I think sometimes its easy to get into the “highlight reels” and not really get a real sense of life on social media. None of it is real life. We post our best 10% and thats what people get to see… Well, this is a little view into the worst 10% of what we have to offer the world and the people around us.

Yesterday during worship, God gave me a vision. When G and I met, everything was up in the clouds… We were Very comfortable. Lately, life has been so uncomfotable, stressful, and “low to the ground”, I feel like we are dragging in the mud a lot of days… God took that vision and showed me there, on the ground, close to this seed that I was watching and watering and tending to, day in and day out. Theres only One seed… Not a garden, not a feild… A Seed. And ALL my focus was on that seed, and because I wasn’t flying high in the sky, I was able to tend to that seed and water it daily and really give it my attention and focus. I felt like God told me that the length we have been here in the dirt, in the mud, scraping by, watering this seed, trusting in Him and his provisions, will be the amount of fruit that it will produce… That because of the time we have been here, praying, focusing on our faith, digging deeper with eachother, that the harvest that grows from this crop will be beyond what we know how to handle… That there will be abundance that comes out of the time we spent here… Trusting Him.

Sometimes its easy to feel completely defeated in these drought seasons… and through this vision, and just His presence, God gave me this unshakeable Peace yesterday about this time we are in… So much peace, that I don’t even want to be out of this season until God completes what he wanted to accomplish in our hearts, in our faith, and in our relationship. “The level at which we stay here, in the ground, and water this seed, is the level at which this crop will grow and produce fruit.” (Is what I wrote in my notes, in complete tears) I don’t want to be out of this season until God’s time for us in this season is complete.

Garrett and I now see past all the distraction, enough to know that our time here is NOT to build Our Kingdom, but to build God’s Kingdom, and we would Never have shifted our trajectory if he didn’t strip us form all the extra stuff and distractions.

In the meantime, no weapon formed against us will prosper… Because if our God is for us than who can be against us… Greater is He that is in us, than he who is in the world.

God is Good. Always!